God and human

So, in my understanding, God as the perfectly good being, with absolutely good intentions created human as a being obtaining free will as a gift. So, following this logic all evil done on this world is being a pick of man. I suspect God does not wish anything mean to anyone and it’s man who turns his back on Him. Why He made us capable of that? Because it’s a part of the gift of freedom, without that gift we would be only things, machines precisely executing orders, even if not bringing no evil to the world. It’s human who did enslave himself by his choice. It’s human who does rape, robbery, murder and genocide. It’s human who starts wars. God does not wish that to anyone. However still, God does not wish human damnation, even if human turns back on God so much, God is The Merciful being. So I think, salvation is possible for anyone if they really, truly want it. Everyone has a chance but the time is running out. Life has it’s limitations. We are alive but mortal. Why are we mortal then? Because humanity with immortality would be limited, there would be no progress because every new generation there is a new innovation, new thought, new spirit. Immortal humanity would be static. God gave us hints in Holy Books about how to live and how to live not but it’s up to us whether we follow the hints or not. Yes I treat The Books mainly as hints since we’re not meant to be programmed like computers. Therefor, I take any attempt of forcing anyone to do deeds kind of an act of profanity. Any limitation of free will is kind of a profanity. But how to live a functional society and free will at the same time? What about situations with no escape? Why do we have to die? Maybe if we choose to cooperate and reject profanity of many sorts it might be able to build a society like that. Maybe in situations with no escape we can get God’s help. And maybe we have to die but we can choose whether we want eternal life after death or not. We have to fight sometimes but what we fight for? Business of some rich people or maybe ideals that are supposed to make world a better place? If we act with righteous intentions we can get God on our side, that’s what is suspect and there is no more powerful being to have on one’s side. So, it’s 3 AM and I chosen to try writing a theological paper instead of sleeping or attempting a suicide again. Is this right or wrong? I don’t think it’s evil for sure. I used the bits of freedom I got left and written and published this paper. I didn’t harm anyone by doing this. This is my bit for now.